Brightside Entry | Catch A Falling Star & Put It In Your Pocket

Today was, for the most part a terrible day. The weather was terrible (you can read all about it in the post below) and I have this huge zit on my face and yeah--the works. Also, I have a terrible case of PMS and so I feel like a gargoyle: ugly, rough and just generally unpleasant. 

My energy level was at an ultimate low this morning because I spent yesternight baby-sitting my brothers (who are 7 & 9 years older than me respectively, thank you very much) while they drank the night away on a Sunday--an event which I'd been terribly misinformed about; I was under the impression that we were going to a Sunday night dinner. 

Plus, in chemistry lab there was this guy who was talking to me about Psych ward patients and asking me whether or not we were to treat them like people or like specimen. Hrrrm. Look, guy--you seem nice enough and all that but jeezus; the fact that people are still asking that is evidence of how little society has actually progressed (or perhaps it is one of the causes of the said phenomena or lack thereof). It also reminded me more than ever of why I feel so disheartened when it comes to my course and why I feel anti-desire toward the thought of being a doctor (or once wanting to be a doctor). So much pain toward the department and the "psychologists" who I 've met in my short life. All the do is condescend, it would seem--"Youth allows you to make mistakes" and "When I was your age" from men who are in their mid-twenties are favorites of mine. Hay.

But yes, this entry does get happier. :) A day is still more than the sum of its hours, yes? So yeah. I guess today is about saving tidbits of sunshine for rainy days; I found that it was about appreciating the little pockets of happiness as opposed to basking in the flood of negativity. :)

Reader Mail. I don't like the term "fan" mail because really--we're all just people, it's just that I'm fortunate enough to have time to do this: I know a lot of people with way more interesting lives who I would love to read about. But yeah, I've been getting a lot of e-mail and private messages from readers about how inspired they've gotten from this little bit of cyberspace and that gives me hope. :) If someone finds my life interesting or reading this causes them to love their own lives a little more, then I must be doing something right. Thank you, thank you, thank you to everyone who sent things in. :D I hope you got my replies!

Skin Care. I bought this clay-based Tea Tree Oil face mask from PCX this afternoon because I have this ugly zit on my right cheek and I think it's really helping it out. :) Hopefully, this'll be gone within the week. Also, I got Dove beauty soap for sensitive skin and Myra moisturizer--which smells heavenly. I like skin care much more than make-up, I realize (although it wasn't always that way, which is why I have a ton of make-up things). Everything smells so pretty. :))

Funny Groupmates. I'm fortunate enough to have really nice groupmates for my chem lab class. :) Our one groupmate was absent but I actually had fun working on the experiment today with JK, who I know from the Student Publications Office (now the Student Media Office). We got to talking about how being Senior Editor for a publication really just means that you're retired and there's nowhere to put you. :)) He's also taking his student internship at PGH (Philippine General Hospital) so it was fun talking about that for a bit (until the guy mentioned above chimed in and started talking about the patients like they were characters from Sweeney Todd). But yeah, good time for the most part.

Bus Sunsets. After a long, tiring day I find it's extremely relaxing to be on a bus at the coastal area around sun down time (4:30 - 5:30). So pretty. There are these blue tenement houses by the side of the coastal highway that I think are beautiful--I don't understand why more people don't live there. Free housing and a view of the ocean; I would live there if given the chance. Home. I like the idea of home.

A Song That Hits The Spot. I have this habit of listening to an album straight through then playing and replaying my favorite tracks, skipping other tracks that don't quite get me so that when I tire of my favorite tracks, I go back to those and see how (or if) they grow on me. I did this today with Tegan & Sara's Sainthood album. And as I was listening to The Cure I realized that this is exactly how I feel now about an ex-friend of mine (yes, friend) who doesn't talk to me anymore; I realized while listening to this song that I've made peace with the idea of him being alone forever and that's refreshing. :) To some extent, I think we do choose our endings. Or rather, our choices manifest what we feel--whether they are things we're aware of or not. :)

I'll end with that and the live acoustic performance of the song: 

Lyrics here. :) My favorite lines:

I know the world's been mean to you, I've got a cure, hold tight.

I know the world's not fair to you, I've got a cure for it's crimes.

All I dreamed up, all that seemed like luck seems silly to you now.

All I said to you, all I did for you seems so silly to me now.

Hope everyone has had a good day and has a better tomorrow! ;)

Also, it's the Game of Thrones finale tonight!!!!