Brightside Entry | Last First Term

Sadly, I didn't get to take a photo of myself today as I had a breakfast date with Trizha and had to be out of the house by 5:45 to get to Taft by 7:00 am. :) Instead, I will give you a good, old-fashioned "first day of class" blog post. 

For those of you who're reading this and don't know me personally, I am a BS Psychology major and before I got sense knocked into me by Raymond Chang's 10th edition Chemistry book, I swear I wanted to be a doctor. Not to say that it doesn't make sense to be a doctor but that it doesn't make sense for me to be a doctor. Or rather, it just doesn't make sense to me anymore, the being a doctor dream. I shifted from a course in AB Behavioral Sciences (major in Organizational Social Systems Development & Management) in 2008--yes, I am ID 107--when my dad got a triple bypass and I took care of him. That's the thing about strokes of inspiration: sometimes they're wrong. But yeah, I don't regret it or anything. It's just that it's been difficult; being in the BS Psychology programs turns your CGPA kind of bipolar--when you're doing your majors (Abnormal Psychology, Bio Psychology, etc.) you're always doing well but when you're doing the minor subjects (Embryology, Zoology) it's always as though your dangling from a thin thread that can snap at any moment. But yeah, you learn to deal. I'm also delayed mostly because  I pushed my chemistry subjects another year because I was expecting to run (again) for Malate Literary Folio's Editorial Board but I decided against it for various reasons: (1) I learned that I am very reclusive about my writing--so much so that I think I made a terrible editor (2) I needed to focus on Chemistry. 

As much as De LaSalle University has been (for the most part) kind to me (although I can't say the same for my parents' bank account), I am so so happy to say that this will be my last first term, thank goodness. I have no regrets about it though, even if it is a stay longer than I expected. I think over-staying has also allowed me to get a clear perspective about what I want and how I want to do it. I've also learned the difference between psychology and insanity. 

I went to class today completely motivated and even if it is Organic Chemistry and even if I did discover a huge hole in the tanktop I wore today, I think I'm going to be okay. :) My college life has been a journey--and a tumultuous one at that---and I have absolutely no regrets. I was listening to some second years (ID 111 is it now? Jeeeesus Christ) ranting about how they're so sick of lab and how they can't wait to get older and how if it's a freecut they might go watch a movie and I just thought wow, these people are going to be so different after a year or two longer here. Seated in the back of the lab lecture area were me and a couple of ID 109s ( who ended up being my groupmates) and that's what happens when you get older: you get comfier in your own skin but also loudness irks you and this sort of boisterous energy that younger people have leaves you. You realize that your opinions, while of a certain value, do not need to be heard by everyone else and that there is a certain calmness, a certain safety not found in numbers. It's odd but it's alright as well: learning is as much about finding out who you aren't as it is finding out who you are. :) And I...am crazy. 

I also had coffee with Trizha and we're planning a huge giveaway for ya'll soon (keep tuned)! :D Hint: Blank Pages. ;)